Nic Sheff is truly my inspiration to write. He takes his issues that he knows personally and can develop them into a character and makes amazing books.. I want to be able to channel all of the issues I have into something. I want to be able to write and convey everything I’m feeling and try to get someone to understand…

I’m tired and all I want is him here in bed with me… Can we just make everything permanent…


This weekend has been absolute perfection. Currently laying in the bed in only my underwear, a bra, and sweater and enjoying the cold air conditioner. These past two days were absolute perfection. He took me out to dinner both days, yesterday we went to the aquarium and just walked around the harbor and talked to each other. The things he has said were perfection. I truly know where we are with our relationship. Apparently he is willing to move wherever I go and we’re meant for each other. He is my gorgeous boy and I couldn’t ask for anyone better… And within the next two weeks we will be spending two nights in Pennsylvania with his dad. Cannot wait 💗


Sensual love blog ❤❤

ONE more day to get through and it’s already that day thankfully. Time to go to work, finish up some more school assignments, come home and finish packing, and then wait for tomorrow morning. He’s coming to pick me up early in the morning as soon as I’m done doing things with my mother and I can’t wait. A weekend alone with the person I love most, in my favorite place, and seeing some of my favorite things is perfection.



i go through periods of 

“i’m so fucking cool and awesome and hot. I would date me” 

followed by 

“i’m so fucking ugly why do people talk to me i’m such a loser” 

followed by 


followed by 

“oh my god everyone is so fucked up i hate people and want to die.”

All before 9am



W e recently adopted a couple of kittens. This one, Starbuck, enjoys chewing on books

dear fucking god